Everyone has been asking how I’m doing and I’m not sure what to say. I went through a pretty harsh grieving process, but in my typical style it took up the better part of my Thursday and a little of Friday. Now I’ve had time to get introspective about the whole thing and simply put, it just sucks. I know…how profound. This is the life I have chosen though. The only thing that makes life possible is permanent, intolerable uncertainty; not knowing what comes next. It’s an addiction that without which I would be excruciatingly bored, but am trying to break. My job was never in my hands it was in the hands of the people. Not that I thought this would ever happen, but it was always a possibility.
A constituent sent me a note and he said: “Count your blessings. Once you realize how valuable you are and how much you have going for you, the smiles will return, the sun will break out, the music will play, and you will finally be able to move forward the life that God intended for you with grace, strength, courage, and confidence.”
Many forms of Government have been tried, and will be tried in this world. No one pretends that democracy is perfect or all wise. Indeed, it has been said that democracy is the worst form of government except for all those other forms that have been tried from time to time. The great thing about democracy is that it gives every voter a chance to do something stupid. But what is defeat? Nothing but education; nothing but the first step to something better.
And now for something better:
I can’t believe how being a father can put everything in simple perspective. Eat, poop, and sleep…past that the rest will work itself out. None of us have more control of our life than that. It’s in God’s hands and we must be patient and he will give us direction.
Sarah is hanging in there like a champ. She has only told me to get a job like 1 or 2…hundred times. ☺ Neither of us has been getting too much sleep. I think she enjoys her time at home with Gabe though.
Alli the Super Puppy has been doing so well. It’s funny because someone told us over the weekend that when you have the second kid it makes the first one more mature. Who knew it would work with the dog too.
We have delusions of grandeur again this year that we’ll actually get Christmas cards out…ya know, before February. Since we now have Gabriel to brag about we might actually do it. ☺ If not, have a great Holiday and we hope to see as many of you as we can.
God bless… and remember, if you drink don’t drive. Don’t even putt.
